Yesterday I went for my last regular monthly check-up and was about to start my bi-weekly check-ups. I had a pretty bad feeling about going to the doctor yesterday. Things have been going really well even with all the kidney stone issues. I had been feeling pretty good and even started sleeping through the night again. Wednesday was when everything changed. Mid-afternoon after an unneccesary and uncalled for stressful meeting, the pain of stones, and cramps began. I was able to make it through the day but left in extreme pain. Came home and the pain eased and my loving husband took such great care of me. Thursday was my scheduled doctor's appointment and I knew there would be bad news. After leaving school earlier than my planned leave time for my doctor's appt. I went home laid down and tried to relax. I arrived at my doctor's appointment for my glucose test and regular appt. They took my blood pressure and guess what.....yup.....it was high. Really high. They put me back in the room to wait for the doctor and she came in and said, "what the h&#^ is going on." I was not only stunned but caught off guard. She said your blood pressure has sky-rocketed since your last appt. what's going on. I immediately broke down and she said wait a minute, your a teacher right, I said yup. She said it's either the kids or the co-workers. We chatted for awhile and she basically put me on a restrictive work schedule. Which just means I can't do anything outside of my basic job duties. She wants to see me next week and if my blood pressure is still high, then she said that's it you're done.
It saddens me that I try so hard to do everything right and make sure that I am taking the best care of my baby girl while she grows, but no matter what it just seems that things don't go the way I want them to. I know that there are reasons things happen and don't get me wrong, I am soooooooo thankful that she is still inside my tummy growing! Maybe this is a lesson to teach me to speak up, stand my ground, and fight for what is right. Maybe it's a lesson in depending more on God. Whatever the lesson I am open to learning and pray everyday that God protects Baby E and keeps her safe and happy inside my belly. He has been so faithful and she is so strong, and she has given me faith!
My prayer is that Baby E stays safe, healthy, and that I too can stay safe, healthy, and CALM so that she has the best possible growing environment. My next appt. is Thursday....so prayers that everything works out and my blood pressure drops back into the normal range and that the kidney stone pain stays away or manageable again.
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